A Blog Entry Which Summarizes Some of My Current Thoughts, With Some Small Attempts at Being Witty

1. As of 6:15 pm on Sunday, I am officially unemployed for the first time in 5 1/2 years. Days 1 and 2 of unemployment have been very enjoyable. I'll let you know when that changes.
2. Last night, I submitted my 9th and 10th job applications. I have been contacted about 2 of those 10. Still waiting to hear about last week's job interview. If "Diane" follows through, I will have a brief phone interview sometime tomorrow afternoon. In my recent experience, however, managers rarely stick to their word regarding phone calls. Maybe I should start writing in my cover letter that I ALWAYS keep my promises...at least when it comes to phone calls. Except for that one phone call I promised last week.
3. I have committed to surviving without my own car until I can buy a good one, but I wish I had one right now. I've seen multiple nanny positions that sound wonderful, but are way out of bus range. The bus only goes so far! Either all the rich families with nannies need to move back to the real suburbs, or someone needs to tell Metro Transit what's really up.
4. Every time I do laundry, my closet shrinks a little. Where has all this clothing come from, and where am I supposed to put it?
5. On Saturday, I went with Kayla and my mom to look at wedding dresses. One store had beautiful dresses on sale for $99. For about ten seconds, I thought to myself, "Oh man, this is such a great deal! Maybe I should just buy one now just in case I can't find such a good deal when I get engaged!" Then I gave myself a mental slap to the face.
6. You know what I really dislike? Those times when you are (figuratively) sprinting towards something that is wonderful and exactly what you want, and then a big, fat brick wall pops up out of nowhere and says, "Nuh-uh, you aren't gettin' anywhere near that!" Those are the times when I'm grateful that God has a bigger plan for my life and kept me from obtaining something or going somewhere for a good reason. Even so, I can't help thinking sometimes how great my life would have been without that talking brick wall.
7. I lost my Ipod while visiting my grandparents a few weekends ago. It probably ended up somewhere in the 2+ feet of snow they now have. Is it to much to hope for my Ipod to survive until the snow melts and spring comes?
8. I am a selfish, rotten, sinful human, and I am sick of myself sometimes. Pray that God would shake me out of my stupidity and bring out the righteousness that comes from knowing Him and loving Him most.

An Update

Yesterday was one of "those" days for me. I got lost on the way to my interview, got there 5 minutes late, and consequently was not on top of my game as much as I should have been, especially considering some questions I was not expecting. I was driving my sister's car, which has the worst winter traction (besides my old car!). I got stuck twice when I was in the Caribou drive through! That all snowballed with worry about getting a job, and I was ready for the day to be over.

I know that God will provide for me, but worry and fear sneak their way into my life so much that the truth is often eclipsed. Thankfully, last night and this morning I was reminded that God has already been providing for me and still is. My grandparents have been extremely generous with what little they have to give, including leftovers! I've been offered about 10 hours of overtime during my last week at work, and this morning I opened a letter that contained a refund after canceling my car insurance. It's happening little by little, but these seemingly small blessings help remind me that God knows and cares.

On that note, please continue to pray that God would make my job search fruitful, that employers would contact me, that I would have a successful interview for the job God has for me at this time. Also pray that I would not find my security in my employment, but in my salvation. Wherever I end up, I am looking forward to starting a new "adventure" after college.