June 5, 2010

Gazing Into A Foggy Future

Opinions are flying my way from all around me. Everyone has an idea about what I should do and how I should do it, except me. Of course, I have ideas about what I can do, but I have no clue what I'm supposed to do. What I want for my future consists of two things, Lord willing:
  1. A job that allows me to work with children and pay all of my bills.
  2. A husband and a family.
As I look towards my future, I want to conduct my life in a way that allows for my desires/plans, but that is the wrong approach. I should be following God's leading, wherever that takes me. That takes more faith than I have right now. Lord, help my unbelief!
Another issue is that I don't have a car. Taking the bus is fine here, but only when there's a bus to take. I'm searching for a job while looking through the "I don't have a car" lens. I've been lectured that I should be applying for any and every job, not worrying about transportation until after I've been hired. That seems so irresponsible to me! Why would I accept a job if I wasn't sure if I could get there? Am I supposed to have faith that God will provide a job that I can get to right now, or should I look for a job and have faith that God will provide the transportation with it?
In short, I feel lost and confused, and I don't know what to do.

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